ben's back.. and there was that "great reunion" that i had been looking forward(up until a point anyway, lol, read previous entries to see when i stopped) to. and all i can think is, that was it? seriously, THAT WAS IT? and to top it all off, i aint the first person he met(not counting family la). -_- to put it more specifically, i aint the first GIRL he saw. that he "had feelings for" anyway.. wtf la.. that was it.
anyway. i hate almost all men right now, cept for my gay/bi male friends; i still love you guys. i get abused. in all ways. sigh. doesnt matter la. hmmm.
i hope things would improve, seriously i do. and maybe ben can like. i dunno. DO SMTH. -_- or then again maybe not. all i know is. my saturday tmr is free. and i feel weird abt that.